Hi Tara. I agree with you about money losing its value to compulsive gamblers. It just becomes ammunition to feed our addiction. Lying is part of our makeup too, I became very good at lying in the past and even believed most of what I was telling others myself. Can you self-exclude from your gambling venue? I posted here, had one on one counselling, group counselling and attending a few GA meetings but it was banning myself from the casino that finally did the trick and allowed me some time to think about my actions and have some clarity. I also “came clean” to my friends and family regarding my addiction and their support has been wonderful. Of course, I needed to show them that I was serious about my recovery and the self exclusion helped do that. Perhaps writing down your feelings, how you feel before, during and after you gamble, will help you to remember those feelings. When you have a gambling urge, go back and read your journal here. Keep posting and go to one of those meetings as well as the counselling, it all helps. Debbie
