Micky, Jonny and Vera my good friend thank you for thinking off me, your posts are always very welcome and also greatly received.
Well here we go I am going to be brutally honest………………….
I feel s*it, life seems really s*it, I cant get into a good mind set!, my mind is all over the place, my feelings are all over the place, I am quickly growing apart from my wife………just as quickly seem to be growing apart from my kids, work is a nightmare and getting such a hard time at them moment from other work colleges and from managers for not meeting target, I work there to pay the bills but not happy with the quality of work people are churning out and also worried it could be life threatening to someone in one way shape or form…………………..I am in a totally mess mentally and really honestly don’t know what to do or which way to turn, believe it or not Vera this is my 42nd day gamble free and didn’t gamble in the month of June…..last bet 28th May 2017, haven’t managed 42 days for years…….but all is not well……..I don’t really know…..I am 40 so perhaps going through some midlife crisis!!! just don’t feel good about anything in life, everything at the moment just seems to be “rock bottom” how is that?
Anyway that’s enough from me for one day, really hope you are keeping well Vera and hope all your family are good, you are a lovely women with a very big and kind heart….never forget that my friend, also be sure to take care of yourself you deserve looking after!
Wish you all well and catch you soon…………
Maverick