Hey I D I
Thanks for your posts, I havn’t been online too much as I damaged my shoulder and it was painful when typing.
Anyway you’ve posted some great things and as much as I’ve got things I’d like to say to them all, I’d be here ‘til Christmas.
I read somewhere, (might have been you), that all the theories and reasons don’t matter and it’s just important that we get through today without gambling. At the end of the day that is why we all first came here.
You are near enough 5 weeks without gambling, imagine that! You done that, only you. You might get strength from what others say but at the end of the day you have exercised your choice. You’ve made that choice every day for 33 days on the run. 40 days ago you probably would have thought it impossible, I didn’t. I know people can change. You’re right it’s about the acceptance of yes we are powerless against it, and then the realisation that, hold on I do have a choice here, I can say “No”
IDI we will never agree on all things, so what. Like manipulation for example. I fully take on board that you and Monica havn’t manipulated anybody or any situation when you were gambling, and full credit. Because the vast majority of CG’s I’ve met have been liars at the very least when gambling, when not gambling or thinking about it they were all very honest men. However most CG’s I’ve met have been in prison, rehab or GA so maybe my statistics a bit biased!
Of course it’s not right to tar everybody with the same brush. My biggest fault is that I do worry that people are going to go to the pathetic lengths I went to, believe me you don’t know the half of it. But of course not many will, I do understand that. I really don’t profess to be an expert but I can generally empathise with most situations people are in, and having experienced that situation myself know that I then progressed to even lower levels, and even worse feelings of sick to the stomach despair at what I’d done again. Again. I didn’t realise then that I had a choice.
I suppose the glaringly obvious difference is I wasn’t looking for recovery then. And the people who are posting here are looking for recovery, or help with stopping.
I am genuinely pleased to see everybody progressing through life without gambling, however different our opinions on some things might be.
I think we both agree on one thing, gambling is an unnecessary evil in our lives, we don’t need it.
I’m pleased you enjoyed your trip, was it a last minute thing? I was in Central London on Friday and Sat nights’ we could have had a coffee.
Thanks again for the nice things you said. 🙂