Thanks so much for your reply. I absolutely 100% need to see someone, I know this, I waa just feeling sad tonight and needed a small (or not so small) Vent.
Glad you are here, i feel out of touch sometimes, I’m sure the urges are the same, I just haven’t had one for a while, I’m just too busy lol. Between work and home and grandkids my life is full on now. I did have around 6 weeks off with the covid dramas (I’m in Australia) and found that I spent a lot of that time on the couch with no motivation ! I did roll my ankle quite severely at the start of it so I literally couldn’t walk , but now things are picking up, work is extending, I can finally see the grandies, I can go for a walk!
I do think it’s important Steev for those starting this road to know that it can be done, that this addiction can be managed, I remember a lady here when I first found this site, I was in awe of her, she had something like 4 years under her belt and I just couldn’t imagine that at the time. One day she disappeared, never to be heard of again. I still think of her to this day, she was my proof of success, I could do it, because it had been done. I think we all have a role to play here, it’s just finding it, and being comfortable with it. I haven’t been here for a long time either, and have enjoyed posting tonight, so maybe us ‘oldies’ arent obsolete…we have been there, and survived. I consider myself one of the very fortunates, it could have turned out so differently, but was ready and was prepared to do anything and everythin, and I pretty much did. ill always be a compulsive gambler, I’m totally comfortable with it, it helped mould me into who I am,’and while life is still hard, my god it’s good to be alive and living!
Take care! Love K xxx