Hi Wisefox, well done on writing your feelings and seeking support. Most of us on here have felt as you do right now..In shock and disbelief about what we have done. It might be an idea to put a gambling block on your phone straight away.
All the good work has not vanished wise fox. You hAve experience of freedom from gambling, you know that you have done it before and can again and you also know his quickly life an return to normal.
U know the drill! Force yourself to get strong barriers in place and start again!! You will do it this time Wisefox!!