Hi Vera. Thank you for your post. I feel better today. It is interesting or strange that some times, small step we take, changes our mood or even direction.
I had a visit from a friend and it changed the rest of the day for me. I went out did some shopping, and windows shopping. I felt quite better.
You did very good to have gone to Dublin with your family. I am sure charles will understand that.
Staying at home for me is becoming very disturbing. I am seriously excluded myself from every where and every one.
It was my defence system before but now it is some thing to be aware of and deal with it.
One thing that keeps me at home without being bored and stay up at night is the internet, basically the computer. watching movies, and social networks, which gives me the false believe that I am not alone and am in touch with others.
Now I have to change it.
I feel worthless and it is a danger in my situation to feel like that.
This week I have to seriously work on it and if not successful then i will have to pack my computer and not use that for a while until I become comfortable with myself. Of course I will continue to come here even if it means going to internet shops, but for now might be the best not to have internet at home.
Let me see what I can do this week.
All the best Vera.
