Hi Vera,
In the nicest possible way – get your butt back to what you know was working! For you that meant GA meetings and groups here.
Keep what remains of your lump safe – maybe think about tyig it up for a longr period like you did to start with.
Then look at what you can do moving forwards.
We all know that No money = No gambling. However the reverse is also true: No gambling = we have money again and that is when we need to plan for.
Keep posting, here on your own thread, and again – get your butt back to what you KNOW works.