Hi there and welcome to GT
Its so wonderful you have posted this new journal. Congratulations on taking this step and reaching out for help. This is where you will find it. Also things like GA and counselling, banning from venues and carrying little cash all helps as well.
It is hard to ask for help sometimes and you have done it, glad you are sharing your story with us. We are all here trying to live a gamble free life. Some do it from day one some do it like myself over a long period of falling down and getting back up.
I have made recovery the number one in my life, it has to be for me and if that is there then everything else seems to follow.
Recovery from this addiction is possible I’ve seen it here, though i am not the greatest example i would like to say i understand what you are going through. I could not believe i got hooked on machines. I just could not comprehend it for a long time. I learnt through the progression and the pain of this addiction that yes i am a compulsive gambler. When i have urges i wait them out, i start doing something else straight away, and get my mind involved in something that will take my thinking out of that obsession. Ga is very helpful and supportive too and its great to go into a room full of people going through and have been through what we have.
keep posting, hang on to recovery, put the effort into your recovery that you would into gambling. Its a terrible addiction that ruins lives. You have come to the right place and glad you are on board here too. Its been a lifesaver for me here sometimes. Try talking to the one on one advisors they have a way of helping you unscramble your head some days.
Most of all, don’t give up. If you fall down get back up. Try to take it one day at a time, just try to be gamble free for today and not worry too much about tomorrow. Im excited to see another new member here and hope to see more of your posts
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