Yes i remember you.. cant tell you how many day 1’s i have had. This addiction is constant.. we can have days away from it but its always there, thats why people go to GA for years and years because the addiction doesnt actually go away so neither should the support.
Its easy to get lulled into a false sense of security in recovery especially when having some time up. It doesnt matter what day it is, it matters that we dont start again. Once we start we cant stop.. i see we as in its the same for most who have crossed the line.. they are the ones im talking about including myself.
You are spot on.. gamble or dont gamble, there absolutely is no grey area or in-between.. but once started it is incredibly hard to stop again, but you can.
You will stop again, you have before and you coming back here is testament to that. Dont think of day one just continue on now and you have experienced a pothole in your recovery.. i find day counting detrimental for the reason if there is a relapse it often is so devastating to the person to say day one again, it doesnt wipe away all the gamble free time you had and learnt.. recovery continues..
The important thing now is to stop again and continue support.. you can do this.. we all can with support.
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