hi thanks for your reply
when I spoke to my partner she was very upset which is understandable her son was there to comfort her she also an open person with her children being very close so she told them all again I get it.
as I said I don.t blame them I can only try and repair what I.ve done
however myself will remember how people are with me now or don.t offer me support and i.ll move onwards and upwards and maybe when i.m stronger these memories will probably help me to stop pleasing or helping other but as I said I trying not to get a pretty sort of attitude just a positive mindset.
I know it’s out in the open but everyone will have there own views on how bad it is especially if they are a close family network
how ever I.ve always helped with no hesitation and people forget the kind and good person you are and only see the hurt you bring and how bad you must be to do what you did