Hi taz,
Where you go from here…
though it seems like youre in a loop of gambling and regret, it CAN stop. It starts with saying to yourself “no more!”
Take one day at a time to focus on your recoverY. Open upto your wife because she needs to know and will help you to put obstacles in your way to stop you from gambling
but it starts with yourself, you actually wanting to stop and placing obstacles in place, including transfering your salary to a close one’s account until u have had enough GF days to think rationally about this habit.
Stopping will allow you be clear of the haze that gambling creates and really look good and hard at your financial situatio, your life and yourself. It’s only then that you can repair, rebuild and find peace of mind
I wish you many many more GF days