Hi Swoosh,
Give up all access to your own money to your other half. I remember being embarrassed many moons ago, when I was so out of control, that everything I had I lost to gambling. I would gamble on anything and everything. The brain thinks, that surely a big win will come. IT NEVER WILL. because even if you won a million, you would think it is not enough.
I don’t want to sound harsh, but you have to admit you have no control and have no access to gambling sites, block yourself from all casinos etc etc. Give yourself the bare minimum each month to survive. I PROMISE, a point will come when your brain will start to heal subliminally. I get so much pleasure from all the things that money can never buy. Laughing with close friends, the sun on my face (although not much of that at the moment 🙂 !! All the very simplest things. I have a pug and take him for long walks, it gives me the time to just think and he always agree’s with me 🙂
The scratch cards will always tease you but you will never win. I beg you to stop. This is from someone who has gambled for the best part of 40 years and lost a lot of money. However I have come to appreciate what is important. Focus all your thoughts on your son and Disney. Imagine the days there and the sheer joy you could have……those memories are never lost, but gambling memories are hell on Earth.
You will be shocked how quickly your funds will recover, however bad thing seem. I know its hard to get perspective, as I have been the worlds worst gambling idiot !!!!!
Just take one day at a time and thing will get better.
Good Luck my friend