Welcome to the forum. You said it, You had a life and with gambling you don’t. And that is what gambling does. I also ran Into to difficulties with an untrained sponsor at GA but GA isn’t really my thing. This site is my thing, and Gordon Moody where I did the women’s gambling programme. We have to really want to give up gambling. It is only through accessing our higher power, whatever u believe that to be that helps us.
While counselling can really help, and I recommend it, we can be stuck in childhood trauma till very late in life. Sometimes mental health professionals keep us stuck. For me, I also had a fair amount of adult childhood trauma. And you know what, I reached a point where it was just get over it. Forgive them, they were doing their best and we never know the lives that people have that makes them who they r. This is a new day.
Gambling is a progressive illness, it get worse until, like me we hit rock bottom, and then the only choice to survive is to stop. We recover our lives slowly but surely. We all on here have had relapses and kept the blocks you talk about, those blocks are just the addiction speaking. Decide you want to live life and fulfil those wonderful dreams you speak of, which sound great. I hope keep posting.
