Hi Steev,
I read your post/comment and am lookig for help. Long story short I have been gambling for only one year. Despite it only being a year I know I’ve been completely consumed by online blackjack and sportsbetting. My wife and family recognize this and I know it too. Recently I sufferred a big loss and broke down to my wife. The problem is that even with that loss I am still in the positive on gambling. Part of me thinks that I am lucky for that and to get out while still ahead as reading some people’s posts show me how fortunate of a position i am in. However another part just won’t let these thoughts about gambling die down. Even though big picture I am up, I can’t help but feel like I’m down after my recent loss and I just want to get it back before stopping. another part of me just wants to go back to the fun/recreational way of gambling which is how it was when i first started. Reading these forums I know that most likely I wont be able to just go the recreational way and that it would be a gateway towards the all consuming gambling that i had been doing and that if that contnued, i can end up in a similarly unfortunate position as many others on this forum. However, its been about three weeks since that loss and i have gambled and i I just can’t seem to kick these thoughts and the feeling that I am down (even though I’m not) or that I will be able to restart and control myself this time. Any advice would be appreciated