I am glad you posted and hope u continue to do so. It helps to have somewhere to talk about how we feel.
Sometimes it’s difficult when people mean well and want to provide support but we r as human as the next person when we may hold views or have experience that is quite different to how it feels for ourselves in those relationships. I have experience of that on this site. People care about you. We rvhere to support you.
None of my family would ever do counselling from the top of it down the family lines. I was the only one so it was pointless. Many years ago in the early 90s family therapy was suggested as my family were quite dysfunctional. No one but me would do it, so I get it.
Hope u feel better from the methotrexate, a strong drug, and I really hope you keep journaling.
