Hi Sharynh
It seems to me that you are unnecessarily punishing yourself for an action in 2015 when you were actively gambling but gambling now will not change that.
I am not a gambler but I lost irreplaceable things to the addiction of someone I love, however, his gamble-free life is far more precious than anything I lost. If it was possible for your aunt to understand you and your addiction I would like to think that she would feel this way to but I concede that she possibly would not.
Your aunt is coming to see her brother at a terrible time and hopefully will not be thinking of a piece of jewellery but whether she wants to see it or not, consider this – what purpose do you think that you starting to gamble again will serve apart from causing you pain and misery?
I don’t have a crystal ball so I cannot know what the outcome of your aunt’s visit will be but I do know that you and your life are important. Put yourself first, control your gambling today, you have already proved to yourself that you can do it. Use this site, its forum and its groups to support you through this time, contact our Helpline if you want to communicate one-to-one. You are understood here and there is no judgement.
Velvet