I’m struggling with the same maybe I don’t have to do it everyday, but from time to time I go wild and I hate this.
I’m not the best person to give you advises but I would try to give your finances to someone who you trust.
Why you just don’t go to casino and tell them to ban you forever? I believe you can ban yourself from the casino.
Keep it strong, try to be here keep posting everyday about your feelings and bad demons…. I hope you will recover from it.