Hi mate,
Congratulations on your first day! Take it step by step and say by day. It’s not an easy process at all but it’s so worth it. By accepting your losses and knowing you can’t get that money back will definitely help your recovery.
You talk about the $50k debts, have you sorted repayments that are managable on your salary? What barriers are you putting in place to stop you gambling?
I would also recommend to ban yourself permanently.. because knowing you can log back in after those 30 days is just giving you temptation. Self exclude for as long as you can, you will thank your future self for this.
Hoping that today is still gamble free for you. Keep posting your progress!! Step by step you can do this