Hi Rayman,
you lost some money – when you put the whole thing into perspective -that’s all you did. You didn’t kill !
It’s really hard when we relapse and really difficult to cope with a huge loss . it will take time to recover but recover you will.
Your family and friends however would never recover for their whole lives from the loss of you – I know – I live it every day.
Things are bad right now but as someone advised- get sleep, be kind to yourself and set those barriers so high that it will be impossible for you to gamble.
You can do this and you can quickly return to those happy gamble free days.
This is a horrible blip. Give yourself a week and then write about how you feel. Don’t rush into anything-impulsiveness is one of our biggest character fautls.
Remember your T words
take the time to think things through.
Rayman- to err is human -Don’t be so hard on yourself.
Hang in there -you have overcome this before and you will again!