Hi Packerton,
The biggest win in the world will only fuel out addiction as you so eloquently described. Once we cross the line into addiction we will never be able to hold on to our wins.
The surprising thing for me is that once I stopped gambling and set up really sensible (with really low payments) plan with my creditors I am able to afford the things I thought I had to gambled for – instead of waiting to buy things when I win (things which never materialised how ever big the win) I can do it now!
I will never be a millionaire – but I don’t meed to be – I have enough , I am content and my life has improved so much .
Hang in here – you are doing really well! Keep telling yourself that you have enough !