Hi, today I feel a little happier and clearer because I had a good pep talk with idi yesterday and someone from GA rang me last night for a chat. I feel able to clear my bedroom and do some washing today plus look at my daily goals to see what I want to achieve today. That is not to say I will feel the same tomorrow. I have lived in recovery now for 76 days and I know how the emotional state can swing from one space to another, and it frequently does. And you are right, things definitely weren’t great when I started gambling, but I had money and a job I liked. There were also many things not right with my life that I did not,know what to do about and had no one to help express or gather my thoughts on. I didn’t even know some of the things that were not right and only now, this year have I seen some of these things. And it is all very new, this recovery business, This is where sites like this are great and GA is too. To do a lot of cleaning is very therapeutic. I am starting this today but have been unable to do even this locked in depression. It is one day at a time. I have now had 3 good days out of 77 and 2 of them have been in the last week, So the good days will become more frequent. Every day is a bad day when we gamble because we are just running away, something I am all too famiiar with in this life.
