Hi murr,
So happy to hear that you are hitting this problem exactly where it will hurt and weaken it and have trouble coming back
With each day that we refrain from it, our habits and brain is recovery and forgetting. Urges weaken to the extent that you have stopped thinking about it.
Your debt is going down and with every dollar you add, the closer you are to building up your own savings
I read a few threads of wives with CG husbands who have gambled away hundreds of thousands and who are still in denial about their addiction. I felt terrible reading it as I felt I was the husband causing these wives to lose their lives, peace, trust, happiness. But then I reminded myself that I acknowledged from quite early on, and still do, that I have a gambling problem.
I do not want to lie, I do not want to hurt my family or friends. I do not wish to lie to myself. I do not wish to gamble with my family’s future. I do not wish to inflict irreparable damage or pain on my closest people. I simply couldn’t live with myself.
I can say today that I am a problem gambler. One bet is simply not enough for me and I
Lose control when I bet. I have made the conscious decision to stop and I did not gamble yesterday nor the day before and I will not gamble today.
Murr we are both on the right track. Heads up and a pat on the back from me friend