You’re proving yet again that you’re a force to be reckoned with! Despite the stress and triggers you’ve remained gambling free so if you can feel some pride in your actions it’d be justified!
As you know, stopping gambling is really the start of the journey, LIFE is what happens when recovery is well underway. The good news is that if you can survive what you’ve already survived, you can survive this! You’re not “The bad one” you’re the reasonable, rational, grown up one who’s dealing with daily life and all the trials that brings. That makes you the STRONG one M, even if it doesn’t feel like that at the moment!
You don’t have to punish yourself anymore because you gambled and you have nothing to prove to anyone….so be kind to yourself and let go of that guilt. Time to have a really long think about what you want and what’s best for you and Bella.
Come and talk to us if you need to but whatever happens, make sure you get enough support because it’s obviously working for you so no retreating back into your own head!
Take care M, you’re in my thoughts.
Janey