Hi Monique, and thanks for your supporting post.
I am sorry that I have missed so many of your support groups. The reason being was that, first of all my intention was to limit my access to internet, there for less time spend on the net. But at the same time was emotionally under pressure by the negative feelings I had after talking to my sister. I was not talking to her for quite a long time, when she all she was doing was complaining about other family members constantly, and I was myself in the process of giving up gambling. When i told him nicely to forget a bout the past and forgive people for what they have done, she put the phone down and and never contacted me until recently. I can not tell her how angry I feel when she is none stop talking about others, what they have done, what she has done for them….I do not want to reason with her and there for Just listening to her and get angrier and and angrier until she say good bye.
Each time such a thing happens, I know that I would be in danger, but how can I explain to some one like my sister that she is making me, pushing me in to the red area full of dangers.
I know as a recovering CG, I should not let this situation be used as an excuse to destroy what I have done for the last few months. I am working on myself, my behaviours, my reactions, level of anxiety, and how I am dealing with them.
I owe all this Technics and strength to you all in here, and even If I am not here every day, but every day, when in fronted with a difficult situation, I think about you, harry, Charles, and try to remember all you would say to me if you were here. This site, forum, support group is not just on the internet for me but in my blood and in my head, with me, walking me trough the dangers and happy time in life.
If I am not present in your room but I am with you always.
Thanks for every thing, all the best.
