hi Monicau, just read your post whilst out walking the dog, firstly, i’m sorry that you are feeling so low, i haven’t come here to give you advice as to be honest i am the last person able to do that right now.
i know you think that mastering your emotions would help but i have a different angle on that as i have mastered mine and now i have a hard time expressing it and it sits inside me festering wanting to explode but i can’t access it, they’ll be a point where the tears will dry up and you will find a little motivation even if it’s doing something small. bury your head in Bailey and have a good cry, dogs are excellent listeners.
i think as humans we have basic needs from the minute we are born, to be loved, sheltered, fed nurtured and the space and safety to express feelings of pain when we need to.
i dont know what you will decide about your GA meeting but sometimes doing the thing that we least want to do ends up being the best thing for us.
like i said, this isn’t advice i just wanted to be here
