I have been in the process of handing over the finances.. At first I resisted, even protested against the idea….But as of today, I now use a prepaid debit card, and do not have access to credit, or even my bank card. I will live on a reasonable “allowance” deposited on the prepaid card weekly. I am actually excited to know that if I lapse, I can do very little damage…however, the goal today, and every day is not to lapse. My marriage is getting to be in a better place, because my wife has seen a much more concerted effort put forth by me…such as my participation on these forums, and the financial blockers we are putting in place… Part of me is sad that I can’t just stop on my own, and on my terms, but I’ve tried in the past to stop… it is much better and safer to keep the extra money out of my hands. And as far as counselling goes, it was against every moral fiber of my being once upon a time…but once I gave it a try, and opened my mind to it, it is very practical, and extremely helpful……but we need to want to allow that help to have it be beneficial….and I am grateful for it.
