Hi Monica ,
I had a similar experience on line when I felt under attack by members of f and f on this site – one made amends when I explained how much it was damaging me – I know she didn’t mean to hurt me -the other in my opinion continues to be so self absorbed sh does not have the capacity to realise how she may damage others . I felt unsupported by staff at the time as it felt the sympathy all went to those the other forum .-whether they were in the right or not – thats how I felt then and looking back my feeling haven’t changed .
It affected me hugely and I felt I couldn’t post honestly for years . As this was the only support I was using it meant I had little support .
I totally get therefore how you would have blubbered all day – I cried for days at the time.
A very insightful person (Geordie ) posted a very non judgemental post on my thread about a month ago. I’m not sure how he did it but he made me see things in a new light and I am back using the support and yes it is really starting to help . (Maybe you could check out his post on my thread)
I guess the purpose of this long winded post is to let you know that I get it. .it is difficult to understand the impact of online bullying unless you have experienced it. I am glad the person posted an apology – this will help you regain trust .
You deserve support not, put downs – and sometimes straight talking and put downs without being able to see facial expressions and hear tone can be hard to distinguish online .
Stay strong Monicau- you deserve this recovery and remember you don’t have to be strong all the time- it is ok to be emotional and accept the support of others . Xx