Hi Monica,
I have just read your thread from start to finish and I wish I could give you a hug – you have so many worries all at once .
Gambling addiction take us by surprise and often we don’t really get how bad it can be – until it feels too late .
In truth it is never too late – in truth a good life can start at any age .
It doesn’t matter whether we own a house – what matters is that we have inner peace .and health .
You are a Christian I think or have some form of higher power you believe in – trust in your higher power to restore your world , and continue with all the positive steps you have taken towards recovery .
Don’t be afraid to ask for help- we all need it sometimes and often we need to let people in our lives know how bad things are for us . If they don’t fully know they can’t help us .
Things will improve Monica – you deserve recovery as much as anyone else – keep eating as well as you can , treat yourself to early nights and treat yourself as kindly as you would a close friend who found herself in your situation . You deserve a break from the worry .
Ring everyone you owe and explain your predicament – as much as you feel comfortable with and maybe ask for time to pay the back rent – You might be able to sort a lot of your worries.
I do hope my post helps a little .