Hi Monica ,
It sounds like you had something similar going on – maybe it’s a fear of not having enough but I think more likely it’s that we feel we don’t deserve those nice things .
Now I try to buy myself something whether I have gambled or not . I buy supermarket or sale clothes mostly but they look nice and fresh and I feel nice when I wear something that is not old or shabby . Last week I bought boots . Week before a top and today I will buy a top in a nice bright colour. All of this is very cheap stuff but it’s new !
The course I could finish but it is very intensive in terms of the work I will have to do at home and my child needs me at the moment . It’s one of those times I need to step up and be there. I need to make the right choice . As parents I guess we are always making sacrifices whether it is going out to work or being home when we need to be- I am possibly picking up the pieces after my years of gambing now but it is what it is .
I am taking each day as it comes .
I’m on day nine – well into week 2. I have as Vera says changed my mindset or as P says the switch had flicked .I am not going to analyse this change but just keep counting my days , posting and looking forward. I know when I get one full month behind me financially things start to really ease .
I have also set up a small savings account which will be a nice sum when the holidays come around next year .
My mind is clear , I am focused , I am hopeful , I make good choices.