Hi Monica
Yes I share many triggers with you like the ads and the favourite slot images swirling round my head – but I seem to lack your determination to stay gamble free.
Recently I feel less worried about being put down- I seem to have built myself a nice support group at work and I also care less – I feel maybe my emotions have numbed somewhat . I also have less people putting me down and I can see now that their issues lie with themselves .
I love the way your colleague handled that and I will keep it in mind for when I need it .
Holding on to my pay ( at my current level of addiction)would be that same as winning a significant jackpot – I need to not gamble for three weeks til the next pay in .
And I know people will rush to say forget about three weeks – just for today …but that simply doesn’t motivate me .
I think I can do three weeks – I will have two full pays by Christmas .
I am also going to attempt to email Gamstop once again – but I expect to be ignored again – if they update my details it would be hugely helful – I can still gamble in my maiden name despite uploading several pieces of evidence to them . I feel that they should be held liable in some way for failing to do what I believe they are meant to do.
That’s about it – feeling strong and determined.
Can’t wait for Friday – payday!