Hi Monica,
I’ve been reading your thread word for word since yesterday evening. My time that I can sit at a computer has been increasing thanks to feeling a little better the past couple weeks. Your gambling and thread here remind me so much of me in that I was in so much pain and so much needed the support of the community here. I wish I had been here for you in the beginning as I know what that feels like and I’m sorry for that. I have asked GT about my old thread I had for my first four years of recovery after I hit my rock bottom. I too had to work so that my bottom did not have a trap door. I think you would find hope in my progress. In knowing that there can be life after gambling and that it takes time to come back from the brink of total despair. The impatience to be recovered is a common theme I think. I hope to finish reading your thread tomorrow but for tonight I am done. Unless I get a burst later and manage to get back up for the last group of the day. You have a tenacity in you that didn’t give up even when you felt you were talking to yourself here. You have been through the ringer for your gamble free time and have been facing many demons. The moods swings will continue but is good to know the sun can shine again. I’m glad you are seeing glimpse of the pregambling Monica you know and love. take care,
Laura
