Hi Monica ,
Thank you for your lovely post on my thread.
Of course your life is not over- you are an extremely intelligent , resourceful person who has unfortunately developed an addiction which you were powerless to prevent happening.
If you were armed with the knowledge beforehand it simply would not have happened.
I feel accepting powerlessness is much more than accepting we cannot have the next gamble . It is accepting that we were victims of this disease just as much as a person who is scammed out of their money by an unscrupulous person is a victim. We need to get away from the mindset we did this to ourselves . Who would choose to leave themselves with no money.
That book I found in the charity shop has been brilliant in helping me see this – it is a guide to go with the AA big book.
Don’t allow anyone to point the finger at you , including yourself . Dot. Read all the codswallop about how manipulative we are. We have an addiction which we were powerless to prevent.
Once we truly realise this Monica we lose the desire to gamble – every day is no longer a battle with urges. Yes sure , thoughts will come , but like One has to avoid nuts because of a nut allergy , We have to avoid gambling. – simple
Don’t ever write yourself off- but give yourself a little break to get back into good health. Triple therapy is heavy on your system – the food bank might not be such a bad idea – because if you can get some edible stuff there you will have money over to buy a few nice items to help rebuild your health . Think about it ! Canned tomatoes for example are the base for many good meals . Dried pasta is pretty much the same wherever you get it . Rice is rice ! Go and get what you can for free and then add your better stuff .
I am delighted you are thinking of ways to earn money.
Who knows once you get a little together you may well diversify .
Didn’t Simon Cowell go bankrupt? Didn’t he have to move back in with his mum? Did it do him all that much harm.
Google famous people who went bankrupt (I just did lol).
Do what you have to do – whatever that is you will be a success at it !