Hi Midlandman
20 years is a long time to be in a hamster wheel and I am glad you have decided it is time to use this site and find your way off it.
Your addiction causes the feelings of loss and helplessness but with knowledge which is readily available here you can learn to control your addiction and live a gamble-free life.
I am not going to write a long first post to you but I am interested in why you are currently thinking that a single life would be better for you. Do you have children? Is your wife aware of your addiction and your desire to control it? Do you feel your marriage is causing you to gamble?
When you feel lost and alone it is time to look for something different, I believe you can find that difference here. I look forward to reading more from you and watching your progress towards a wonderful gamble-free life.
Velvet
