Hi Micky , I am feeling your pain .. Thinking about u all morning. This is a horrible illness.. I do believe it is an illness Micky.
Today I was trying to do a bit of tidying and I came across a credit card (which turned out to be out of date) and for that split second my heart leapt and my mind immediately thought GAMBLE!!
It’s hard Micky. We have all had slips, falls an even full relapses . But we are all getting better- becoming more self -aware, realising how easy it is for us to fall back into old ways. It might take quite a few slips for us to finally get it but we are getting there..
If you have had a slip Micky drAw a line in the sand right now. Say goodbye to the money …it is no longer yours , brush yourself down and start again.. (Tikki wrote a wonderful poem about the money… It’s in the poetry corner )!
You know from experience how quickly you will feel normal again..
I think your post was very honest . You felt let down. You expected support when you really needed it and it was not there .
I could exchange email addresses with u Micky as I access them from my phone I am available quite a lot that way..
Even if you just want to talk through an urge I will reply as quickly as I can .
Hope u are feeling g more upbeat .please let us know u are ok…