Im sorry to hear you gambled but i am glad you are not beating yourself up its the worst thing you can do.. learn from your relapse and see where you could have had barriers higher or what you could have done, called someone when you get the urge. Delay it perhaps, wait an hour start doing something else. I know how it goes though Micky of course as ive been there hundreds of times, try to learn from this one and see what you can do to prevent it again.. well done for coming and being honest and moving forward.
P