Hi Mav,
I’m gutted you relapsed, but it’s pointless dwelling on it. You need to concentrate on getting your new gambling free run going again.
Sadly you think you’ve lost everything and that negativity is getting the better of you. In truth, you still have a lot more to lose if you continue to gamble. You have the roof over your head to lose, you have the opportunity of seeing your son grow up to lose, you have the years ahead of you to lose and I could go on. Sadly people with addictions push everything to the very limit and beyond.
You often post on here that you are depressed and in an extremely miserable place and I totally understand where you’re coming from, we all do and we’ve all been there. You need to ask yourself, why if you hate the way you feel right now, do you do everything in your power to stay in that place or for that matter move on to an even worse place?
We’ve all done what you’re doing Mav, but you have the wisdom and experiences of the people on here to help guide you, enlighten you and support you.
I feel I can see your problems clearer than I can see mine sometimes. I hope I don’t sound like I’m preaching to you, as that’s not my intention, but I do feel I can pass on what I’ve learned from my experiences and the effects that my actions have had on my life.
Stay strong and keep it going and always remember there’s still a lot more that you could still lose if you continue to gamble, trust me.
Charlster