Hi Mark,
It seems your post has been missed over the weekend, my apologies.
Have you been reading the other stories here? You will see that there is a lot of life after gambling. If you start your own thread in the My Journal Forum you will get a lot of support there, just scroll down the page and click on new Topic to get started.
Once you stop gambling the financial problems can get sorted. There are a lot of options these days ranging from bankruptcy to repayment plans with a lot in between. If you do have suicidal thoughts then use the support you have avaialble. There is always someone to talk to, here is a link that might help. http://www.befrienders.org
There is also a lot of support around to help people stop gambling, it’s important to use it.
Keep posting here, maybe get to a Gamblers Anonymous meeting as well. Maybe counselling. Get barriers in place to make it hard to gamble, thigns like self exclusion, financial barriers etc
You can turn things around I promise you. Start that thread in the My Journal Forum and let us know some of the positive steps you are starting to take.