Hi Mark,
Well done for coming here. I just had a relapse after a year clean. I am close to losing everything, but I have the community here to be amazing and they have really helped me. I intend to stay in this community, do GA and also GamCare, Find your nearest GamCare counselling group and speak to someone. I have found that my gambling is a result of something else deep inside me. It is an insidious disease. The more you win, the more you want to win. And then when you lose, you have to become reckless to chase losses. We cannot be normal gamblers or players, we always lose our heads.
Good luck, and feel free to write at any time. The people at the end of the helpline are fantastic, they all understand what you are going through.
Good luck, and keep posting.