Hi Maria,
Well done for finding help on this site. It is something I wish I had done last year before I lost everything.
I can only reiterate what they others said. You MUST block yourself from online use using something like K9 which you can set to block ALL gambling sites. Can you get a family member or friend to help you manage the finances. Are you able to get childcare for free for an evening so you could go to GA?
Stay here on this site, it works. Since coming here after 3 years of pretty much non stop gambling, which has resulted in my wife leaving and taking my young child and the loss of my business, I have now been gamble free 25 days today, which is the longest I have ever gone without a bet. If I didn’t have to deal with the fact I only stopped when I broke everything, I would be in a much better place. But that’s how we do it as addicted gamblers – we often don’t stop until there is nothing left. I Hope you don’t do that. Imagine the worst thing that would happen that hasn’t happened. Know that it WILL happen if you don’t stop gambling. That is what I didn’t do. Please, for your children’s sake.
I send you all my love and strength. Say to yourself every morning:
Just for today… I will not Gamble.
You only need to not gamble one day at a time.