Hi Lynsey, well done on looking for help.
Reading the other threadds here you will see many things that you relate to. You will also see the success stories, what are they doing that you can apply to your own situation?
You realise that pay day will be a test for you? Good, now you can use that knowledge. What barriers can you put in place? Who can heol your wages? Who can you be accountable to so that you can’t gamble secretly? You can also get yourself banned from your usual gambling establishments/sites before you get paid.
Keep posting and let us know what positive steps you are taking.