Hi Low life. This seems to be your third thread? Which of the suggestions you have received on other threads have you considered?
Torture? Yes it is. The thing is though that by going into bookies, leaving yourself access to that money to gamble with the person doing the torturing is yourself.
Which bookies do you normally sit in? How about going there tom orrow and asking them to ban you? How about putting that money somewhere that you can’t instantly access it?
Why are you like this? The short answer is because you are an addict, a compulsive gambler. Why you and not others? You maye never know, now you can waste your time keeping asking that question or you can start taking some of the steps that will help you avoid your next bet. Stopping gambling will make you much more likely to get to that 10k than gambling ever will.