Hi Lorraine
I dont know your story but reading your first post on this strikes a lot of chords with me. I do not doubt all the troubles you have but as you can already see from other replies you are not alone and you are not without hope. The fact you have came on this shows to me you have not given up and nor should you. My own experience tells me each and every problem we create for ourselves is not the end of the world, taken in isolation they can all be dealt with, but we struggle not to see it all as one whole heap of crap we cant deal with. But we can, it sounds to me like you have dealt with a lot in the past and you can do it again. Keep the faith, take care, Michael