Hi Logic
There is nothing weak about saying you are confused about a gambling addiction and you don’t know which way to turn.
Sometimes even the strongest have to get a kick-start to alter the course of their life but you have the possibility of a new job which will hopefully give you the impetus to make a good move that will be right for you. I can’t see any benefit in giving up your present job until you are sure you have the new one but hopefully you will get it and your way will seem clearer.
In my opinion, the vulnerable self-conscious side that you see is probably manipulative. With control of the addiction comes brutal honesty and it was then my CG told me that the tears were never for me and were only for himself. He wasn’t the life and soul of the party but he was loved and people did trust and like him – what I was trying to show you was that the active CG is very different to the one who controls his addiction and until that control is taken it is impossible to know what is true and what isn’t because a CG drastically changes reality to fit his/her personal perception.
I don’t think you are ignorant of the addiction, just the depths to which it can take you and while your job seems tortuous and your home seems annoying I believe you are probably vulnerable to someone that people take a shine to – but I am confident that you will be stronger because you are here and listening.
Speak again soon
Velvet
