Hi Logic
I hope your ‘me’ time is as good as it should be – with no thoughts of gambling hanging over you.
Your last post concerns me on a few levels, the main one being that when you are with your CG you doubt everything you are doing. It is important Logic that you make the decisions about your life, that you are in control of your life and that an addiction is not allowed to pull your strings in any shape or form.
His reading about the race at Chester seems to point to the fact there is no let up in his addiction, he is indulging it. Even when he is too ill to go and place his bets he is keeping his addiction alive in his mind. I don’t believe that what you want to hear is lip service and if this is what you are hearing then maybe it is time to stop listening to his addiction and listen to the one person who should have your interests at heart – you.
I think it would be good if you were to re-read your last post and imagine someone you care about saying to you that they are currently on a path where they will never have the things to make them happy in life.
If he was showing a glimmering of truly wanting to change then I would view your posts in a different light but it seems to me he is choosing to carry on gambling because that is what he really thinks makes him happy and that is not a good basis for a loving relationship.
Keep posting Logic and stay clear about what is right for you when you are with or without your CG.
Velvet
