Good on you for resisting the urges, its hard some days, it seems like the option that will just fix everything and make us feel better and it might for a short amount of time but then walking out those doors Lizbeth, ugh, the shame, the guilt, the loss of money, the desire ignited to keep going, the craving, the adding, the subtracting, the why did i do that again, the lost sleep and the regret.. the mental fog it puts us in after. Lizbeth, delay, do what you are doing by getting busy when you have those urges, they always pass. its a matter of waiting them out. Can you see a therapist or counsellor for your concerns? How about even trying the chat groups here, they are wonderful. What about the one on one helpline? You have come so far Lizbeth and you are doing so well.. hold on to your recovery, the addiction is just watching and waiting for a weak moment, dont give it that satisfaction.. you have too much life to be lived
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