I hope that your mum was in good spirits when you saw her.. i know its challenging.. what ive been doing is really remembering i cant control other people and just they are how they are.. if they are going to be negative then you show her how you live in comparison.. you are doing a wonderful job of your recovery.. so pleased and proud of you that you did not give in when you had those urges.. your recovery is amazing.. so full of life and family and positive things..
P