Hi Lily,
Yes, I am terrible at it. I know we have discussed it before but I find it so difficult to truly look after myself. I always put others first, now i am realising, to a fault.
With regards to Vegas, yes I will gamble and I completely agree that to do that sends horrendous mixed messages and levels of hypocrisy. The only conversation I have had with CG about it he just said “wow..I would be dangerous if i was let loose in vegas.”
However, I am not an addict. I know that it is just a way of throwing away $$$. I’m not chasing a win. I know I will lose and will waste $xx doing it. And that is exactly what I told CG about it. For me its a “when in Rome” thing. And even if I did abstain, for CG Vegas = gambling. It would make no difference what I was actually doing there (we are doing plenty of non-gambling related things) but im sure we will all throw a few dollars on red/black, just to say we did it.
Everything sounds so positive with your partner ( I was just reading your thread) and I’m glad you have become so close and your are both now so emotionally available to fully love each other. I accept that I have my own issues too and I’m working towards them. I can only hope that if I’m working towards being in a better place, CG will want that for himself too.
Thanks for replying 🙂 x