Hi Lily,
Thanks for checking on me. I havent been doing very well at all really. Definitely taken a big backwards step and really need to put myself on the right track again.
After I cut gambling out, CG seemed to be be wanting to make a change. He talked a lot about sorting himself out and kicked gambling for a couple of weeks. Which was great. But abstinence isnt enough and he crashed again last week and went on a bender (blamed on me).
So yeah, its been a rough few weeks. I’m trying to protect myself and make time for me. This is helped by an old work colleague returning to the hell office for the summer. Its good to have her around again and i can talk to her easily about CG. but i could be doing more. Its just too hard to completely cut the tie at the minute…even though it shouldnt be.
I leave my job in 3 weeks. Move out the week after and start my new job the week after that. so its finally starting to feel real and close.
Thank you for thinking of me. i need to go back to my support and try again to make myself strong.
Im so annoyed with myself.
Logic x