Thanks for the chat last night and for your post. You are right about being in the same environment. I did go out for a walk today, albeit brief. It is still cold and is expected to continue for the rest of the week but the snow has cleared. As I mentioned in chat, pete andihave agreed to deal with the moving out issue in the New Year. Neither of us are ready to do that, me because ihave turned into relying on him for cigs and bits of food. So sad… when three years ago I was earning five figures monthly and supporting everyone. And I will give him a timeline till the end of March to find somewhere to live. I need to be earning before we can even effectively do that though. The Xmas prayer has not been answered but I still live in hope that a miracle can happen. My Gp is very limited in what she can offer. The counselling service is not an urgent service. In my job, I commission these types of services and I would definitely can this lot. The only other option was local psychiatry. I may go for one appointment or cancel it altogether. I don’t even believe in psychiatry as a therapeutic model. However, I have been offered today a place on the women’s programme with gma starting on the 22nd January which I have gratefully accepted. This gives me a little hope. My work coach cancelled my appointment today, probably because I now have a med cert that outlines the physical problems, which I asked my gp to put on. Next appt in new year. I am still stuck and can’t wait as my daughter says. For Saturn to shift out of sagittarius on the 20th December. I m being very slow in my long list of things to mostly writing letters to creditors and the court thing but have started with another list today. My tummy pain is back a bit, not as bad as last time but I think it is the diet and the fags. The bug has not been eradicated but my colon is perfectly healthy so stress related irritable bowel is the diagnosis there.
