Well done on coming here for help you are in the right place.. keep posting here, your thoughts, your feelings. Use this journal as your place to get things out. Our vision gets a bit skewed when it comes to gambling when weve crossed the line into compulsive gambling, tricks our brains into thinking we can win all the time but when we are compulsive the wins go back in and the losses we chase and its a cycle that just keeps on going and getting worse till we can find a way to stop.. there are many levels of support available.. there is here, with the chat groups, your journal, one on one help. Is there a gamblers anonymous in your area? Can you get counselling? There may be options to ban from where you play? whatever happens keep posting and lets know whats happening, welcome to GT and the beginning of recovery, well done
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